after telling everything she told me to stop liking her and to stay away from her.then i took time to talk to her.and that whole night i was thinking about her and her past and her present.i know her past was not good.and that is disturbing her present also.but if i left her this way then my love is not true.i decided that i will never let her feel alone or tensed due to her past and will try to make her happy and smiling all the time.
i also had a past and i told her about that also.but this time it was my true love and she is my dream girl.so millions of butterflies were flying in my stomach.then next morning i was out of station due to some work and in morning she called my and told that last night after talking to me on phone she was thinking over that topic.our relation.and then she said sorry and told me that she is not ready to come into this relation.i was like heartbroken inside.but managed myself and told her that i just want her to be happy. so accepted her decision.
then things became normal and we are so close now. one day she again told me that she is ready for our relationship and i told her that time that be sure about it and take her time for the right decision. and she said that she is ready but worried about the future for some reasons.she is one year elder than me, she is post graduate and i am just a graduate, her family may prefer a job doing guy for her.but for this i told her first she has to get ready for this relation and if she is ready then will handle the matters all together. and she said ok. but next night we were talking on phone she was frustrated due to her past and don't know why she again said that she don't want this relation.cant say what my condition was.shocked or heartbroken.but my priority was to make her feel comfortable and make her calm first so leaving my conditions i tried to talk to her and somehow i made her feel calm.it took time but she was calm then.
and now my situation is i love her.d i don't only love her.i want to marry her.i know her past was bad but not she.she is still in my heart, now with some extra space.but i cant tell her my all these feelings so thought to write here all this.
in the end i just wish that some day she will start loving me and accept me the way i am.i know i am not the one she dreamed about her life partner.i am not that much good looking, i am not tall. but yes i will take care of her very well and will stand by her side all the time whenever she needs me.by the way this is not a thing to say because if i will marry her then i will obviously be with her in the situations and conditions of life.and she will also company me well during this journey called life.
After one month :
life took a new turn now and i met her few days back and after that meeting i get to know that she don't even like me.and i was going mad after her.even after accepting all her silly talks.i blamed as over possessive.anyhow she rejected me with some stupid reasons.it was not love from her side.things were all arranged by her.Her acceptance and then rejection then waiting for the right time with some strong reason for rejection and then never shown love and then bring some other person into it and making it base for the rejection.and then say out her actual feelings.all was arranged and i was mad in love.
anyways love ended and life starts with a sadistic change.Didn't know that life will take me to that way where i never wanted to go.Each and every time life did this to me.either in Career either in family concern and now in love also. Still alot of things are here in my heart to say but will not speak out here now. hope some day bring a new post with some new time and phase of life.
Note : This story is just a fiction.so comment accordingly.